"only 5% of people that have their mole removed more than 13 years previously, have a recurrence" then he chuckled and walked off.
So then came Friday. The morning discussion team had come round and told me there was no way i was going home because my drains were still draining too much fluid. I wasn't glad to be in hospital but i was still in so much pain i really didn't mind. Then an hour later in walks Dr Andy the surgeon.
I told him what the previous team had said about the drains and he said he was going to take them out anyway and send me home. I got the impression he needed the bed but i thought, well you're the doctor. So he had one of the nurses remove the drains, measure me up for a tighter support stocking instead of the tubigrip they'd been using previously, sorted me out with pain relief and phone numbers if i had any problems and sent me on my way.
"i assume you got it all then?"
She gave us a strange look and asked if anyone had given me my results yet? Bearing in mind I'd seen her the week of my surgery, she was the one that drained the seroma and i saw her again when i was readmitted with the infection. I told her i hadn't and she tried looking them up on the computer then asked us to go back to the waiting room while she tracked them down. All i remember thinking was 'what a bloody circus'.
Half hour later we were being called back in but this time to a different room with a large desk and chairs. Behind the desk was the phantom Dr Andy who i hadn't seen since he released me after surgery. He proceeded to apologize that no one had discussed my results with me and said he was pleased to tell me that only 2 or 4 (i can't remember now) of the lymph nodes had been effected and that the cancer had not gone through to the lymph nodes. I looked at my Andy because i could feel a big but coming and there it was...
"BUT, the cancer has spread from the nodes into the surrounding tissue"
Whack!!! There it is again. That hypothetical 4x2 plank of wood hitting me round the head. All i heard was cancer spread! Dr Andy then proceeded to tell me what would happen next. Trial drugs, chemotherapy, radiotherapy...but all i heard was cancer spread!
|My beautiful scar three months post op|