So Thursday was when I started taking the prescibed dose. Friday I was fine but Saturday Iwoke up feeling a little light headed. I was having lunch with friends that day, Kayleigh, Sarah and Amy, but as the day went on I started feeling more and more strange. By 2pm I had double vision and by 2.30 I had to hold the phone at arms length to be able to read texts! I sat at Kayleighs like a stunned mullet (kiwi slang again). Imagine sitting staring at one thing with your mouth open not saying or doing anything. Apparently in the drug taking community it's called 'ketbombing'. The girls are in their early twenties and refer to me as 'mummy lisa', so to them this was hysterical. When Amy dropped me off home I went straight to bed to try and sleep it off because by this stage I was walking like a barn dancing crab...two steps to the side...one step forward, docey-do, docey-do...three steps to the other side...one step back, docey-do, docey-do!
On the Sunday I spoke to my G.P the lovely Dr Graham, and told him what happened. He was not happy that I'd been given a bottle of Ketamine and left to get on with it. Especially with the high dose of morphine I was on. So on the Monday I was admitted into the local hospital to be introduced to Ketamine gently until they had the pain under control. Which apparently is how it's supposed to be done. I didn't ask, but I guess this is how you hear of people accidentally over-dosing. It felt very strange being in hospital and not being sick but I did feel so much safer. Although I was seeing the funny side to my hot dog experience, it did scare me not having my body under my control.
For the first couple of days they increased the Ketamine and MST Morphine slowly. The problem was I had two different types of pain, as I explained in a previous blog. Firstly there's the bag of spuds under the armpit that gives a constant deep, dull ache that gets worse if the arm presses against the body. So I have to have a pillow under my arm to create a gap. Over the past month this had got a lot worse and was contributing to circulation and nerve problems all down my arm. Secondly was the actual nerve pain down the arm and into the hand. Both types of pains needed to be treated with different drugs.
So let's start with the first type of pain. This image on the right is a view of the bag of spuds. Imagine you're looking through my body from the feet up. This is a 'slice' of my body. My spine is what the darker blue arrow is pointing at and those two beautiful clear big black circles are my lungs. Fingers crossed they stay that way too.
|MRI image of the tumours under|